apparently i sleep spontaneously when i dont want to.
i fell asleep at 6pm and woke up at 830.
so now i know for sure my body clock for tonight is going to be fucked up.

cycling tmr with my girlsss. 
a tad too early but i guess we dont have a choice.
its been a pretty awesome week so far,
lets make it boomz tmr.

i think this is ...


... really weird.

 i really really really really miss playing music.

all i want to say is that! they dont really care about us!
mj, a true musician.

 in view of my sister's keeper,


I HOPE I STILL HAVE FRIENDS AND FAMILY EVEN WHEN IM DYING.

sryk its a sappy movie.

 mark and i begin a new life.

IS THIS WHAT YOU WANT MR MACKY.

condemn actions not morality.

no matter how well you think you know a person,
or how long youve known the person for,
you will never know what a struggle it is for her to make the decisions that she had to,
simple because you are not her, and never will be.

she may not have done something in the best way,
or expressed herself in the best way,
but who does?
the ideal way to deal with daily problems is simple that - ideal.
we almost never come close to coping with them perfectly,
but at the very least we are trying.

what's black and white to one person might be a whole range of grey to someone else.
its a straightforward matter to you, yes,
precisely because youre not involved at all.

more importantly,
what she did doesnt make her a bad person.
maybe it wasnt the best way to do it, or the best time,
but that doesnt mean she is a bad person.
condemn actions not morality, damn it.

i pray for time.

i need to do alot of thinking and re-evaluation.

banged my knee on the wall.
personally, i blame the wall.
what does that say about me?

i've had quite enough of learning about colours&numbers&playing games in psych.
im not saying its easy,
im saying what i expected to be a thunderstorm of pelting concepts,
turned out to be a whiff of grape (OMG FRENCH REVOLUTION REFERENCE).

although i must say i used that reference very loosely,
and not even in its context, only because i wanted to say it.
o where has my logic gone.

i need to learn how to play risk properly.
i dont think it actually involves physical war between troops.

A SIDENOTE TO CANDYCOATED VEE,
I EXPECT TO HEAR FROM YOU TMR!
EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE!
LOVE.

hari raya is going well
(with the exception of a few awkward moments),
i am not rolling over with a belly full of lontong yet,
so keep it coming!

i hope my sec sch friends go out for raye this year.
it never is really complete without them.
and the excessive number of houses.

i just had the best tea ever today.

are we supposed to be studying this week?
genuine question.

let me hop on the angry bandwagon that society is currently on.
kanye west is scum.
but mtv is to be blamed for this ridiculous display.
(i was actually angry yesterday night, but i had eu to study for so i thought i'd put this on hold)

but anw.
http://www.phillyd.tv/2009/09/13/kanye-west-disrespects/



mtv obviously did nothing whatsoever to PREVENT this (preventive measures hello?)
because they knew kanye would generate some kind of publicity.
did kanye west drug the security personnel on his way up to stage?
if that was me waltzing up to stage, i would probably have been electrocuted.

we all know beyonce is a credible artist and has received far more prestigious awards,
its just mtv after all,
and we all know mtv is not representative of the music industry at all.
so yes kanye was right but WOW totally uncalled for and insanely rude.

the results might be biased.
BUT ITS MTV.
expecting a fair voting system?
rly papi? rly?

if this was staged,
then this was LOW. even for mtv, with all its bruno with wings glory.

so either way, its mtv's fault.
for not protecting the interests and emotional welfare of their artists
and for prioritising publicity ahead of everything else.

YOU ARE LOW.

and yes, i do like some taylor songs.

on a sidenote!
is everyone taking the outburst pill or what?
serena williams got slightly overshadowed.
think farah fawcett and michael j.

it comes at a hefty price,
but i like the quiet.

DEAR SOUL WHO PICKED UP MY WALLET

please return it.
i'll even pay you to return my wallet.
seriously.

I JUST WANT MY WALLET BACK.

and all my cards,
they all have my name on them.

and i just bought that wallet.

and there isnt much money anw.

my srs photo is inside.

SO PLEASE.

sometimes i think i drive myself crazy.
is it just me or is pysch the least interesting subject at the mo.

my mother just had to stock up on chocolates the day before fasting month.

the ramadhan and chinese ghost festival month coincide this year,
how very contradicting.........
i hope i dont start a riot.

selamat hari jadi farah!

aye.

today in paris i fell asleep at 1am and woke up at 10am,
just the right time for breakfast.
what a day.

my laptop is an ancient dinosaur that sneaked through a time door 2 years ago.
the battery is dead and buried
and i could run a full fledged circus with the number of viruses i probably (quite positively)
breed in this piece of junk.

its almost like a fragile old woman,
the one who makes you leap to your feet and say 'no no let me do it',
when she tries doing two things at once.
multitasking without hanging violently (and for a substantial period of time)
is a luxury i have pocketed in the back of my mind,
along with my first steps as a child and my first words.

hmm.

l word the movie is in the making,
i might attend, armed with darts filled with poison
just in case another mindboggling-mindraping-outoftheblue-theory JUMPS AT ME FROM THE SCREEN,
forcing me out of my seat to stab the next person.
(who might be nilah, but im sure she would have killed several people in row A by this time)

im pleased to see that NUS has turned the fate of our lives into
a mini game for their sick pleasure.
okay maybe that was never their intention.

BUT STILL!

i personally dont find it very funny that the outcome of our careers
is balanced treacherously on IMAGINARY POINTS THAT DONT EXIST.

if i save enough points by the end of term, do i get to buy another degree?

in that case, can i purchase two free degrees and upsize one minor to a triple major pls.
takeaway of course.

not only are we sent into a flurry of auction talk
(do i retract my bid? whats the highest bid? WHAT AM I SAYING),
i have to compete with other people who probably want this module,
just as much as i do!
this surely isnt the time to be a good samaritan,
but since when was education depriving someone else of learning?

hmm. perhaps it has always been that way.

BUT STILL.

so anw i gladly close the bidding chapter of round 1C,
till round 2A which incidentally, is on monday.
sigh. shortlived.

i cant believe the light is dying on this grand holiday of mine.
every other holiday after this will seem like a fishing boat compared to this titanic.
i see the iceberg already!
in the words of nilah: SAVE ME

its also probably time for me to adjust my bodyclock back to normal.
either that or i can move to aussie and blend in perfectly with society.

i do not like losing sleep over losing sleep,
just as how i don't like fearing fear.

tick tock tick tock.